Wednesday 1st April 1964
– Mimi: “We are beginning another month! Will I be able to finish it? Thank You, my Beloved for coming this morning. Thank You for helping me speak to my director. With Your help, I was able to describe the state of my little soul. I am so tormented. I feel as if I were living in a dream. Everything I would like to know, understand, becomes for me a mystery, an uncertainty. I would like to walk on a strait path and it is the contrary that takes place. I always end up at square one. I am going around in circles. And yet, You know how I would like at times to stop in order to get my strength back and better serve You.”
– Jesus: “My dear little spouse, you mustn’t be surprised, especially in the present situation that is part of Our program. By your vows of immolation of body, soul, mind, it is not permitted for you to know if you are walking on the right path or if you are going around in circles, if you are back to square one or if you have stopped. My Beloved, all that you need to do is to trust Us and obey your director in charge of souls. He is journeying with Us. By a special grace, he knows what We expect from you and from him, for with Me, he also must cooperate in your mission. You must not doubt your union with Me in love and suffering and all that is going on during the Team work. It is not a dream but a reality, and My merciful love for you is not a mystery, but a love that is alive, powerful. My Beloved, what I have done for you, I can do for all souls. My mercy is infinite. My love has no limit. Before a miserable soul, a guilty soul, I reach out with more love. I need to forgive, to give Myself to it, especially if this soul is humble, sincere, loving.”
Thursday 2 April 1964
– Mimi: “My Beloved, thank You for Your help. Without You I can do nothing. I beg You to give me the strength to follow You till the end, till the total giving of myself. I have such a need to be alone with You to listen to You, to speak to You without a witness present. Yes, my Beloved, speak to me. I need to hear Your voice to reassure me of Your love. You know that I can hide nothing from You. But I am sad at the thought of losing You. I still have to struggle, to hang onto You, for You are my only hope… Yes, my God, my only refuge. According to the advice of my director, all I have to do is obey and say over and over again: “My God, I believe in You, I hope in You, and I love You.” In the present situation, in this time of trials, I wonder how far is my faith, my hope and my love.”
– Jesus: “My Beloved, you want to know the extent of your faith? Look at Me present in you and you will understand. Do you think that Our intimacy is only an illusion? This need to love Me, to follow Me, to serve Me, to suffer with Me, to cooperate with Me for the salvation of souls is proof that your faith is very much alive in you. Pure faith does not consist in a tangible faith. My Beloved, in spiritual life, faith must be purified, tried. Before appearing before Us, the soul must follow an obscure path during which its faith must be purified before seeing its radiance before the Divine Majesty. Ponder well the following: you will be judged on your faith in the love of God, in Our merciful love; your faith in the Holy Spirit, your faith in the presence of the Blessed Trinity in you, your faith in Our intimacy, your faith in Our union in love and suffering, your faith in your mission as victim of love and of a living host consecrated by Our love.
You will be judged on your faith during trials, spiritual aridity, your faith in moments of great temptations and during your Team work, your faith in Our conversations and writings, your faith in your director. Faith and confidence are two concrete elements and the bond of Our love. Everything must return to Us with love.”
– Mimi: “My God, please increase my faith and love.”
Friday 3 April 1964
– Mimi: “Finally, You are here, my Beloved! To get my strength back, I come to You, for I believe you are presently in me. I was so happy to receive You this morning. I was meditating on Your merciful love towards me. I saw again each moment of my life where Your love protected me, sustained me, enlightened me, directed me. In spite of my conduct, there was at the bottom of my little heart this need to love You, to suffer with You.
From the age of six, I experienced moral and physical suffering. How many times I wept in silence, not daring to trust anyone, not even my dear mom. Yet, the heart of a mother understands everything. How many times I would have liked to confide in her, rest my head on her heart to make it easy. But not being able to share Our intimacy, I kept it a secret. Using a smile as a mask, I hid many sufferings.”
– Jesus: “My Beloved, your director and Myself waited a long time to see what was going on in your little soul. Even today, you have remained mysterious for certain persons, but not for Us… With your little soul that is open, affectionate, sincere, there is no mystery between Us for We are One. Your director received a special grace to direct your little soul, to unveil well hidden at the bottom of your little soul, all your little secrets, Our conversations, your mission as victim of Our love. One day, your director said: “God wants everything from you.” That day, he knew what We wanted and expected from you. With Us, he directed your little soul. He cooperated with Us. He purified it. Now that you are attached to the cross, all you need is to obey him without even understanding what is going on in your soul. The mystery is now yours. With Me, you are in security.”
Saturday, 4 April 1964
– Mimi: “After doing battle with my enemy, all I could say to hang onto God was: “My God, I want to believe that I believe for everything is so dark.” There was emptiness. No more intimacy that used to sustain me continually. Everything had disappeared. Thank You for Your love. After communion, I felt strong. With You, what do I have to fear from my enemy?
– Jesus: “Yes, My Beloved, with Me your Spouse who am present in you! I am here with My grace, for you must ask Me each day for the grace of state to accomplish your mission and also the grace of the present moment, for it only takes a moment to commit an error in spiritual life as in the case of material things. In a single moment, a soul can depart from Me and lose Me forever. But the soul who makes it a habit of asking for these graces is not afraid of losing Our love, Our intimacy, for We are with it at each moment. My Beloved, you must have total confidence in My Divine Providence. To have confidence when all is going well is good, but to have confidence when all is going bad, when everything is crumbling, everything is dark is to have pure faith and full confidence.”
– Jesus: “With faith, hope, love and confidence, you can walk without fear in spite of the attacks of your enemy. He cannot get near you.”
– Satan: “You see how your God is mistaken! During great temptations, I attack your senses. What do you have to say about the choking, the physical falls, etc?”
– Jesus: “My Beloved, you see how far the pride of your enemy has gone? If he attacks your senses, it is because We allow him to do this. Our Divine Mother bothers him and humiliates him. So, he attacks you with violence in revenge. During this time, you suffer, you merit, you are cooperating with Me in saving souls that My Divine Mother recuperates for Our glory.
Sometimes, there are souls that are very difficult to reach, especially consecrated souls, souls who have taken advantage of My grace, of My sacraments. To take possession of these souls, I am obliged to obey Our Father and come towards these souls with My merciful love, My crown or thorns, My cross. At times, the conquest is quite long, but I always win.
Yes, My Beloved, My little host of love, Our little victim whom We so love, continue to love Us, to follow Us faithfully without understanding everything. Tell yourself only that We are One in the same love, on the same cross and that Almighty God, Our Father loves Us. It is an honor for you to suffer with Me and it is a joy for Me to suffer with you.”
Sunday 5 April 1964
– Mimi: “How I found the time long before receiving You, at 10 o’clock! Thank You, my God, for helping us. We finished our triduum to celebrate our Gentle Mother of heaven. She is so good to us! She watches over us. Thank You for Your very special protection, for Your visible love in the presence of my enemy’s attacks.”
My God, it is time for me to say: Do with me what You will. With Your grace, I accept everything from You. What can I possibly refuse You after so many signs of love that surround me in spite of my unworthiness?
« Ô my God, Father infinitely good and merciful, thank You for Your love. I cannot hold back my tears of joy, of gratitude for having given me Your Son as Spouse. Ô my Father, You must have had to close Your eyes on my miseries. On the other hand, You opened Your Heart and Your powerful arms to receive me as Your prodigal child. Thanks a million! How great is my debt of gratitude towards You, towards my Beloved, towards the Holy Spirit, towards my Gentle Mother of heaven, towards all those who prayed for me. It is with the help of the Holy Spirit that I am able to walk with You.”
– Mimi: “Ô my Beloved, with You I want to accept and accomplish what Our Father expects from His little girl, so weak and frail. My Gentle Mother of heaven, please teach me to remain well hidden from humans so that I may not harm the designs God has for me. Obtain for me the humility of the heart, of the soul, of the mind. I have a great need of graces and prayers to follow Your Jesus as a total gift on the cross.”
– Jesus: “My dear little spouse, you will never understand exactly the importance of your mission as victim of love! Yes, to be a victim with Me in Our love through suffering, to be victim with Me on the cross. Yes, My Beloved, your mission of making known My love, that is, Our love through suffering is great. By making known Our love, you also show the importance of suffering with Me.
Love and suffering can be reconciled with My intimacy. How many beautiful souls love and suffer without understanding the importance of their trials, their cross. Yes, to accept to suffer with Me… How I could help them even more with My intimacy, for, with Me, this presence would become real. I would be a living God. By practicing intimacy with Us, with Me, the soul would quickly learn to receive Us, to accept Us in its life.
As God, I would fill this soul, and as a friend, a brother, a Spouse, I would constantly speak to it. It would completely change its spiritual life. On the cross, those who had the privilege of being near Me were souls who shared My intimacy. By intimacy, the humble, sincere, respectful soul lives constantly in Our presence. To be a child of God does not only consist in being baptized, to pray morning and night and during the day according to schedule, to receive Us in the Sacraments, but to live ones baptism well, for We have entered this soul with Our love, Our power, Our intimacy. We want souls to pray to Us, to adore Us, but We want especially the soul to speak to Us intimately, without detour, simply, like a child speaks with love, with confidence to its Father who is God.”
Monday 6 April 1964
Feast of the Annunciation of the Blessed Virgin
– Mimi: “Happy Birthday, Mother! I had the great joy of receiving Holy Communion. Thank You, my Beloved! What souvenirs for me! Already forteen years since I received the grace to make my vows. From that day on, everything in my life has changed, transformed by Your love. I am suffering so much today! I can no longer write!
N.B. The Annunciation of the Blessed Virgin was the 25th of March 1964 We can conclude that Mimi did not transcribe this text before the 6th of April 1964 / S.D
Tuesday 7 April 1964
– Mimi: “My God, do with me what You will for Your greater glory! With Your grace, I accept everything out of love in union with the Passion of my Beloved. When God speaks through suffering, His voice becomes more intimate. To be united to my Beloved through love and suffering is my great desire, my ideal, my joy, my peace.”
Wednesday 8 April 1964
– Mimi: “Thank You for coming this morning to comfort me, to help me accept everything. My Beloved, the mission to which I am called is tremendous for my size, but with You, I want to cooperate. I lean on You with love, confidence and I expect everything from Your infinite love. The physical and moral sufferings are increasing more and more.”
– Jesus: “Yes, My Beloved, it is your ascension towards Us. It is not surprising for Us that your little heart should experience resistance to everything. It contains so much love for Us, for souls.”
Thursday 9 April 1964
– Mimi: “My God, help me, please. I can’t go on and yet, You know, my Beloved, that I want to follow You to the cross. Give me the strength to walk with You and if I should fall, carry me in Your powerful arms. In the name of Our love, sustain me, please. My God, I accept everything. I must remain solidly attached to Our cross.
Small hemorrhages of the tongue have started again. My religious nurse and the members of my family are worried. My Beloved,I love You!”
Friday 10 April 1964
– Mimi: “How anxious I am to receive You! I have to wait till tomorrow! My sufferings are terrible. My Beloved, I do not ask You to suffer less! I ask You, please, for the grace, the strength to hide my suffering in order not to worry my entourage, my family. You who wanted to hide me from humans, hide me till the end.”
Saturday 11 April 1964
– Mimi: “Thank You for being with me! In receiving You I recover my strength. I need You so much! I am finding the road so long, so dangerous! Give me Your hand to lead me to Our Father. I wonder whether it is a good thing to take pain killers to dull the pain. In obeying my doctor, am I doing Your will? Am I fulfilling my duty of state as victim?”
– Jesus: “My Beloved, fear not! In spite of all remedies, no one will be able to calm your sufferings. Your moral pain, who can relieve it? Your sufferings are Ours. If at times you find some rest, it is We who give it to you so that you may build up your strength to do battle.”
Friday 17 April 1964
– Mimi: “Thank You for coming! Already a year since I made my profession in the Third Order of Our Lady of Mount Carmel. What memories since then! What graces received! Thank You, my God, for everything. My Beloved, stay with me on the cross! I am suffering terribly.”
Saturday 18 April 1964
– Mimi: “Still another communion! I am so happy to be able to receive You! My Beloved, how generous is my director for You and for me. Please help him. He is suffering so much.”
– Jesus: “My Beloved, I am watching over him as I am over you. Souls are not only purchased through prayer. Your director knows this well.»
Sunday 19 April 1964
– Mimi: “Thank You for helping us to begin a triduum in honor of our Gentle Mother of heaven, the 22nd of April, Queen of the Company of Jesus.
“My God, please bless all the Jesuits throughout the world and all those who one day will replace them. Give us many religious and missionary vocations so that they may be good and holy priests. Bless my director whom You have chosen to direct my little soul. He will have to give it to You purified for Your greater glory. Bless Your dear apostle Father Paul Mayer s.j. to whom You have given such a heavy task of preaching to souls, to place Your love into their minds and hearts.”
Saturday 25 April 1964
– Mimi: “Thank You, my God, for so much love. Think of my happiness in receiving You each day 17, 18, 19, 20, 21, 22, 23, 25…
– Jesus: “My Beloved, think of My joy of coming to you. Thank you, dear children! We have been touched by the kindness of your director and by his love and generosity. We have been fulfilled. It is by a special grace that We have received it, for, rare are the priests who are doing ministry at 82. May this be an example. With faith, love, confidence, humility, your director has always directed his steps towards Us with an entire submission to Our Holy Will. As a victim soul chosen by Us, he has answered “yes” with love by accepting suffering of all shapes and shared the cross he accepted as a gift. This has not prevented him from being happy!”
Sunday 26 April 1964
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I don’t know what is going on in me. At five o’clock, I woke up suddenly, believing I was to receive communion, but I soon realized that it was only a dream. My Beloved, I cannot hold back my tears. I miss You so much. I count the days. I find the time so long! How anxious I am to see You! To be near You!”
– Jesus: “My Beloved, be patient! Your ascension towards Us has already begun. Offer everthing up, even the blood you shed during your little tongue hemorrhages. This blood is useful for souls, for it is united to My Precious Blood. You know, each victim soul must, sooner or later, shed blood. In your case, it is a question mark for the doctors and others. I allowed you to receive Me each day during this trial. By receiving Me in My sacrament of love, you can recover your strength without human help.
My grace sustains you and My love is your strength. Humanly speaking, it isn’t possible for you to live with so much moral and physical suffering. But each day, the miracle of love is renewed in you. Faith, love, confidence are powerful weapons for combat. My Beloved, when a soul has emptied itself, it is then that We have total freedom to act, to work with it. The more this soul recognizes its nothingness, the more We are in it with Our love, Our power.
The more it feels its smallness, the more We fill it with important graces and if this soul is humble, sincere, We give it Our most beautiful gift, love in suffering through the royal gift of the cross. Like Myself, the ideal of the victim soul must be love through suffering till its supreme gift.”
– Jesus: “To reach this ideal, the soul must be humble, docile to the inspirations of the Holy Spirit, must submit to Our Holy Will in all things, must believe in Our Presence within it, must live in great and constant intimacy with Us. To be a christian is to accept being loved by Us and to love Us. If the soul has understood this well, its love will be transformed, centered on Us, for it will understand what We expect from it, in whatever state it may be, the extent of its trials, spiritual aridity, its struggles, its joys, its victories. This soul will always remain in Our love and will maintain in spite of everything total peace and Our intimacy. No one will be able to steal these gifts from it.”
Monday 27 April 1964
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I thank You for coming this morning. I am never fully satisfied. I miss You. Today, my Beloved, You are keeping me on the cross with You. Increase my strength, my courage to remain where You have placed me, and where You want me to be.”
Tuesday 28 April 1964
– Mimi: “My Beloved, thank You for helping me. After several hours of physical and especially moral sufferings, I am able to rest near You, my God whom I love, I adore.”
– Jesus: “My Beloved, I also want to thank you for giving Me the occasion of resting in you. My dear little host of love, the more you suffer, the more you are close to Us, for by elevating yourself close to Us through physical suffering, you are detaching yourself from your body and through moral suffering, you are detaching yourself from yourself, from your will and you are elevating yourself close to Us with your mind and your soul.
My Beloved, it is at the school of the Holy Spirit that one learns to love, to suffer in order to desire one day the cross. Yes, to receive it sincerely, to accept it at every moment, to carry it the way God gives it to you, prepares it for you. At the moment of death, the soul will be judged on its love and the cross it shall have carried with resignation and conformity to Our Holy Will. You know, the mystery of love and the mystery of the cross are inseparable.”
Wednesday 29 April 1964
– Mimi: “I am so happy to receive You! I am suffering so much! My Beloved, please help me remain standing in order to receive these persons. Be in my heart, on my lips so that I may help them. They are suffering so much! If You would only, my Beloved, speak to each one of them. They need so much encouragement. I am doing my best, but if You spoke to them, I am certain they would recover the light, the peace, the love that they need.
We are beginning, my director and myself, a triduum to prepare the feast of Saint Joseph.”
Thursday 30 April 1964
– Mimi: “My God, please help me. I am so happy to receive You! My Beloved, I need You so badly! I am suffering so much today. I must help my neighbor. I don’t feel I have the strength, but with You, I know that I will be able to do this work.”
– Jesus: “Yes, My Beloved. I am in you. Today I am asking a lot from you. We need more sufferings for souls and a lot of love for Us. If the person gives you money for your work, give it to your companion. You are not working for money but for the love of Us and of souls.”
